Pride has been creeping up on my lately. It sidles up and whispers goodies like this…
“Oh, see what they’re doing over there? Yeah, you don’t do that anymore. Aren’t you so great?”
“Tsk tsk. If only they had listened to you. They wouldn’t be in so much trouble now, would they?”
“Why don’t you take a moment and let them know how much you’ve done today?”
“No, don’t go help them. They deserve to suffer for awhile. After all, they didn’t ask for your help, did they?”
It’s sneaky and believable and makes me feel so good about ME.
Also, it’s deadly toxic.
I don’t want my marriage, my parenting, my relationships, any part of me to be influenced by pride. I want to be known for who I truly am (no matter how scary that statement is) and not gloat in my accomplishments. Sure, I may be making some strides towards wholeness or alignment or health but there are just as many areas that are still lacking. Shine a light on those for awhile, wouldja? Now, it’s not about shaming myself into making me smaller or less than (that’s self pity, another form of pride). It’s about repenting of thinking more highly than myself than I ought to and instead, respond in the opposite spirit.
Encouraging when I want to criticizing.
Congratulating when I want to gloat.
Helping when I want to withhold.
Asking when I want to talk.
If you think you are too important to help someone, you are only fooling yourself. You are not that important.
Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won’t need to compare yourself to anyone else. For we are each responsible for our own conduct.
Success is not defined by those around me. It’s defined by my level of obedience and submission to what God has asked me to do. When I start peeking to the left and right, sneaking glances in front and back of me…that’s when I open the gates for pride to lallygag right on through. Am I paying attention to my own work? Where has God asked me to obey? Am I being thorough and faithful? I am the only one responsible for my own conduct, my own growth, my own maturity.